I would be

Better off dead

A spear in my heart

Or a bullet to the head

Maybe drink some bleach

So the ones around me see

The pain that I've felt ;

It's been magnifying 

I've lost all hope

At the end of my rope

Can't continue to cope

The darkness is dear

My only friend here

I have no one to talk to

No one to confide 

No one to listen

In the darkness I ride