I remember when I first started smoking weed I would walk down Haddon Abe and close my eyes and the cars would sound just like waves like I was on the beach. I remember one of the coolest times that I smoked; it was when I had only smoked a handful of two of times and I hadn't smoked a bong before. I was ripping the Bong in this abandoned house with some friends and I got so stoned I began dreaming yet I was awake, like I was in third person actually watching my own dreams. Chip tune music was playing and I was flying over landscapes between situations in my dreams. I was riding on this unicorn to different dreams. Everything was so abstract, I would fall into a situation and after I would be riding over seas and mountains to my next dream. It was an amazing experience. I used to get so stoned that I would constantly have curtain vision or slide vision, the psychedelic properties were extremely strong for me. When I smoked I remembered so much from my childhood that it really shifted my outlook on life a lot and my thoughts were connected in ways they never had been before. Now as a daily smoker the psychedelic effects are not as apparent but I feel like it's just within me at all times. If I stopped for two weeks I wonder how my thinking would change. I know I have not gotten any stupider from weed but my mind is cloudy most of the time, I take longer to think and remember but I also feel like I analyze things and problems differently because of weed. Whenever I'm being irrational if I hit the bud I can think straight and loically again without emotion.  

I only post pics because I haven't decided what I want to write about really and I do what to document how I look for myself. I want to start writing more on this.

II've been thinking about money a lot lately. I'm really interested in economics because I feel like our system is so messed up. The stock market is so weird to me I really want to learn more. Something great happened for me at school with my math class:3 I've been swimming a lot and having fun outdoors in new places. Yet I am extremely depressed. I go through stages and I am at the worst and I have been for awhile but I just am doing my best to suck it up and be regular. 

This is a rainbow sprinkle thing that formed in my room. 

Tomorrow I'm going to the shore with my parents. I'm going to read on a kindle.

Many times

I love my kitten ratti/smoky

She was ready to get my foot then she did

Chrome filter wow hah

What doctor is calling Wendy's and asking for me?! I haven't worked there in a year I have this funny feeling it wasn't a doctor that called them but someone maybe trying to see if I still worked there? 

8:35am

I had the most amazing dream literally made me so happy I love when something feels so real but then later on I had a dream I think I was trying to get my dads attention I screamed dad  so loud it woke me up and my dad and mom. I get my calculus test back today , wow okay I just remembered another dream. I dreamed I literally got a 5. I am extremely stressed about it and only have one more week of class so I'm hoping so badly that I get a passing grade. Yesterday I went to the Renaissance fair with Alexis because she had free tickets, it was the nj one it was pretty silly I bought a clay car freshener and cinnamon oil to put on it. At the Devils pool where I went cliff jumping it was a really nice atmosphere. I jumped off the highest cliff it feels so cool for those moments of free fall. The beautiful question is a book that I would like to read next week. The reviews on Amazon are amazing

Silver blonde :3 went cliff jumping yesterday it was amazing :3

I used to hate my profile but now I feel like it reflects a part of my personality just hard as hell you know

I've got some rigid boundaries and anyone that believes I don't does not know me at all. I'm becoming disciplined , it's work in progress yet over my own mind I very much in control and aware. So if you think you know me, know I'm not like others in that aspect