Have you ever had the feeling of true and ultimate death? I know i have read about people experiencing this feeling. But its like a whole different sensation of pain that is so intense in a way thats unexplainable. The dimension that youre being pulled into has such a strong hold on you,  that if you were to try and speak it would not come out as words. I want to read a littlr about astral projection. Although my beliefs are normally based on scienece or observation ect. ; the times i experienced it, it literally was the most insanely realistic and most intense things that have happened to me. At the time i didnt even know of astralprojection (honestly still dont know much but im saying i didnt even knoe the term) . Each time i would be laying in my bed trying to sleep and all the sudden  i open my eyes because i feel like a gravitational force is pulling me. When i look around  see my bed clear as day, my mind is clear.  The force gets so incrediably strong  its with pure energy exponetially gathering in my entire body. Its unexplainableto describe thr amount of energy coursing through me in a way that makes my cringe. It only happened 3 times and only once i was smart and let my self fully let go. I dont know what was ripping out of me but i guess most wouod describe it as a soul? I dont know what form i was in but the unique and indescribable pain of me getting torn of even as i gripped the bed still i left that bed  and body behind. I was moving so fast it felt like the speed of light. Through my roof and then the trees, the sky the atmosphere into space and then abstract insane color cosmic bliss. And thenmy eyes opened again and i felt so insane.